Her was a good film. I was a bit wary about watching a film where a guy has a relationship with his OS. However, I think it was done really well. Is it weird that Joaquin’s character makes me think of Leonard from BBT?

I felt that the film was very thought-provoking. We are now living in a technology based society and our lives are heavily governed by social media. Sometimes, people forget how to have real relationships because they are busy living in the online world. But it also brings up the fact that some people don’t know when to let go of someone, even when all the signs are there. Instead, they want to trap the person, holding tightly in hopes that they can control the situation. I feel for Leonard but at the same time, he refuses to let Catharine go and he’s so afraid of moving on that he starts dating an OS. Sometimes we project onto other people without realizing it. Instead of setting them free to grow, we drag them down (in the case of Amy and Charles). Sometimes the best thing for two people is to let go and move on. Maybe sometimes it’s better to be alone, to learn to be alone. I think I connected most with Amy’s character.

My main criticism is the montage scenes. There were a lot of them and we didn’t need that many of them. It didn’t give us any new information and I understand that they were trying to make him seem really lonely. However, we already know this and don’t need to be bashed over the head with it repeatedly.

It also brought up some alarming questions. Is this what our future will be like? Will we be so used to technology playing apart in every aspect of our life that we forget how to connect with real people? Does having a relationship with someone that doesn’t exist  make it any less real? Does it count as a relationship? I mean, I don’t want to throw Japan under the bus but stuff like this is already happening over there with it being legal to marry 2D characters and all. Any thoughts?

Overall, it was a good film about relationships, learning when to let go and trying to form new relationships amidst this highly technological world.


das Leben ist schön

Double post today, WOO! I’m currently on break until the 17th because of Berlinale. I’m so exciteddd to watch films for 8 days straight! I am also extremely relieved that the hell month is finally over. On Tuesday, we screened all our films for the whole class and got feedback from two tutors. The people who screened in the morning were the unlucky ones. Guess which I was? We were bombarded with criticism about every choice we made. Whereas everyone in the afternoon received 10 minutes of feedback, we had about half hour each. The tutors also were MUCH nicer in the afternoon. I was quite upset of course because I was bashed for my editing when I edited it the way one of the tutors told me to (many others faced the same problem). He threw me under the bus when the other tutor didn’t like it. Thanks dude. I had to re-cut the entire thing and I hope that I have better luck with my next film. Some people got completely bashed for things that they cannot change anymore (keep in mind they were supposed to give us feedback to make the best edited version to hand in) or for their music choices when the tutor said he liked it the first time and suddenly was on a music hating rampage. It was a tough learning experience. I think we were all completely crushed. It’s all part of the filmmaking process I guess. This is probably nothing compared to all the challenges and criticism we will get in the future after we graduate. Oh wells, onto the next project then I guess. My goal for the next one is to have at least ONE piece of positive feedback. It might actually be better next time because we will have ONE instructor for the entire script writing process instead of having 3 tutors with very different tastes and ideas. Hopefully that same tutor will also be with us during the whole filming and editing process so that we don’t have several conflicting opinions again. I don’t know how to listen to my own voice yet because of all this so we shall see what happens.

On a more positive note, yesterday was the first time I’ve realized how much I’ve grown over the years. I think being in Berlin was really good for me in terms of personal growth. I feel like I’ve gained more confidence in myself and I feel like I’m being judged less for being myself here. I also noticed that my social anxiety has gone way down. I remember the days where I would make up excuses to cancel on plans because I didn’t want to leave my house. The days when I would skip classes because I knew I would be late and I didn’t want everyone to stare at me when I walked in. The uptight girl who was generally obedient and followed the rules because she was afraid to voice her own opinions and be teased for it. The girl who was always looking for an escape because she hated her life so much. I’m proud of myself. I’m also very lucky to meet so many amazing people in my life, truly. I’m excited for what the future holds and I hope to keep meeting more wonderful people and experiencing interesting things.

Also I want to show off the tattoo I got last month. I love it!


I have an obsession with jellyfish and the galaxy 🙂



As most people know, I am a huge fan of Tom Hiddleston so of course I had to catch the live broadcast of Coriolanus (I was unable to acquire tickets to the live production in London). Prior to this, I had not heard of Coriolanus as it was not one of Shakespeare’s most well known plays. I ended up missing the first ten minutes due to taking the wrong train.

The play was done well in my opinion. It’s a tragic story which is right up my alley. The standout performances to me was Mark Gatiss, Tom Hiddleston, and Deborah Findlay but I think it was also because they had the meatier roles. Deborah really amped the game with her emotional performance. Proud, angry and then consumed with sorrow and desperation for her beloved son, she pulled it off really well. I especially loved the end when she was trying to appeal to her son’s human side, trying to lure out the boy that she raised out of the vengeful beast that he had become. Of course, you can’t help but also feel for Coriolanus, a man who did so much for his country but was unable to deal with the cruel side of politics. I’m glad to be able to see it!